My friends Kristina, Erin and Beth, who are all interns for YL in LoCo, have started their own live journal. I feel this may become one of the funniest websites I'll ever see. Ok it may only be funny if you know them, but to me it's already hysterical.
Tres Amigas.
I love you girls and I miss you like crazy!
Tuesday, November 9, 2004
Monday, November 8, 2004
The Revelator
Working retail has its rewards; mindless tasks create open hours to simply think. Today's thought: It's absolutely amazing how a successful writer can seem to reveal so much about themselves when in reality they reveal nothing. The ability to seem to divulge inner delicacies while never saying enough to be vunerable--wow. I wonder if its something that is done subconsciously or whether it is intentional. I think about this blog journal, two years in the making. How much have I actually divulged and how much has simply been the shavings off a deeper block of truth? I want to be open, I want to be upfront, but I don't quite get what my purpose in that is. Approval? Do I seek to make myself a caricature of myself? I've heard it said that a person is made up of three things: who they are, who they think they are, and who other people see them being. Do these ever coincide? Does time reveal it all? Great, now I've got Gillian Welch's Time (The Revelator) stuck in my head...
Sidebar:
Today I remembered how much I love Austin City Limits. I am a dork that way I guess but holy crap do they have amazing guests on that show.
Other sidebar:
It snowed today. First snow of the season. I hate snow. I hate cold. Why did I move north? (Did you like I started this post being introspective and ended it talking about the weather? Nice touch, eh?)
Sidebar:
Today I remembered how much I love Austin City Limits. I am a dork that way I guess but holy crap do they have amazing guests on that show.
Other sidebar:
It snowed today. First snow of the season. I hate snow. I hate cold. Why did I move north? (Did you like I started this post being introspective and ended it talking about the weather? Nice touch, eh?)
Pass it On
We got to church a little late this morning--attribute it to a late, lonely night and a sincere desire to not face today. Sat in the very back with the rest of the tardy parishioners...I don't particularly like churches, never have. I get nervous and distracted, and end up leaving more stressed than I was when I walked in--not the desired outcome of time spent in a house of God, but what can ya do. This morning there was this little girl about 3 years old in front of me. During the worship her father held her, so she was staring over his shoulder...right at me. We made eye contact; I smiled. She smiled. As we sat back down, I realized something: as much as I have no desire to have children, nor do I possess any sort of maternal instinct, if I do not have children my father will never be a biological grandfather. My father's gene's will die with me. I do not want kids because they'd be a part of me, I'd want them because they'd be a part of him. It's the same reason I'd want a traditional-sort of wedding: so my dad can give me away. It's a bit cheesy I know, but it matters to me to see him proud and happy. I don't know why this came up today. I mean I still don't want children, but I guess that epiphany adds a bit of sadness to the whole thing.
Saturday, November 6, 2004
Ambivelance
Ambivelance
Jotted down in my journal very late last night...
Friend exasperated, "Is there anything you don't have strong opinions about?" Immediate response: Yes there are!!! Actual truth: very little. I am very passionate but that a good thing or not. I get worked up in just about anything. So what are the endearing qualities of ambivelance? There's the the initial and obvious "don't rock the boat" quality, which I see as cowardly, lazy and utterly unpatriotic (not that I have an opinion on the matter). Where is the distinction, I wonder, between open-mindedness and ambilvelance? Mostly in the eye of the beholder; its all about perception....
more to come.
Jotted down in my journal very late last night...
Friend exasperated, "Is there anything you don't have strong opinions about?" Immediate response: Yes there are!!! Actual truth: very little. I am very passionate but that a good thing or not. I get worked up in just about anything. So what are the endearing qualities of ambivelance? There's the the initial and obvious "don't rock the boat" quality, which I see as cowardly, lazy and utterly unpatriotic (not that I have an opinion on the matter). Where is the distinction, I wonder, between open-mindedness and ambilvelance? Mostly in the eye of the beholder; its all about perception....
more to come.
Monday, November 1, 2004
T'was the Night before Chaos
T'was the Night before Chaos
If halloween is the eve of today, and today is the eve of Election Day, what should today be called? Is it absolutely pathetic I'm even thinking of such things?
I am excited to have this election over, but I fear it won't be over for several weeks, like last time. I have to say, the 2000 election was not what one would call a warm reception to the civic duty of voting--if ever it was obvious that the popular vote didn't matter, that'd be it. I've already voted in this election (absentee), so I don't even get a sticker, which kind of makes the process feel a little incomplete. No lever, no booth, no old people, no sticker. I feel a bit gipped.
In the Post today there was an article about faith-based voting, and its place and purpose in our society. The author is a Christian and made a valid point: In the bible, God calls for concern for the poor over 2,000 times, yet scripture mentions homosexuality less than a dozen times. Why is it, then, that gay marriage is the religious election issue this year? It makes no sense, really. Saddens me to think that a Presidental election has been hacked away into something as ignorant as having a canidate more endorsed by "God" than another--how does God endorse someone anyway? Through the church? History will tell us that that's a load of hooey--remember the whole "slavery is biblical" argument, and the "women shouldn't vote", and the "left-handed women are witches" thing? Yeah, there's a reason there's a separation between church and state, people. It's not to protect the churches, it's to protect the state...and voting left-handed black women.
P.S. This past Sunday's game is the only time in history when it's ok to hope the Redskins lose a game. Boys, I'm sorry I cheered against you, but if the prediction is true I'll cheer extra hard for the next 4-8 years. Go Skins!
If halloween is the eve of today, and today is the eve of Election Day, what should today be called? Is it absolutely pathetic I'm even thinking of such things?
I am excited to have this election over, but I fear it won't be over for several weeks, like last time. I have to say, the 2000 election was not what one would call a warm reception to the civic duty of voting--if ever it was obvious that the popular vote didn't matter, that'd be it. I've already voted in this election (absentee), so I don't even get a sticker, which kind of makes the process feel a little incomplete. No lever, no booth, no old people, no sticker. I feel a bit gipped.
In the Post today there was an article about faith-based voting, and its place and purpose in our society. The author is a Christian and made a valid point: In the bible, God calls for concern for the poor over 2,000 times, yet scripture mentions homosexuality less than a dozen times. Why is it, then, that gay marriage is the religious election issue this year? It makes no sense, really. Saddens me to think that a Presidental election has been hacked away into something as ignorant as having a canidate more endorsed by "God" than another--how does God endorse someone anyway? Through the church? History will tell us that that's a load of hooey--remember the whole "slavery is biblical" argument, and the "women shouldn't vote", and the "left-handed women are witches" thing? Yeah, there's a reason there's a separation between church and state, people. It's not to protect the churches, it's to protect the state...and voting left-handed black women.
P.S. This past Sunday's game is the only time in history when it's ok to hope the Redskins lose a game. Boys, I'm sorry I cheered against you, but if the prediction is true I'll cheer extra hard for the next 4-8 years. Go Skins!
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