Have you ever had those situations where an idea seems novel but not truly realistic? I've wanted to do a cross-country trip for a while, but the funding, the transportation and the sheer courage to step out and do something like that has been lacking--I get so focused on what I am doing at that moment to take that much time out and drive around the US was almost unfathomable. Today I got a letter from my Morma (Swedish for 'Mother's mother'--she's 100% Swedish) telling me that she had a job for me to do when I graduate--drive around the country and see the National Parks I am working to protect. And to further this endevor, she offered $1,500 to fund it. WOW. Yeefrickinhaw. My jaw dropped; the idea has gone from a distant dream to a very real possibility.
Long conversation with a respected friend today about the guys in our lives who have made anyone else a 'hot rock'; that is, if that guy ever said to us that he wanted or needed us to be with him, we would drop anything (or anyone that we may be involved with) like a hot rock and go to him. There's something so powerful and intimidating that I can say that--I wonder if he will ever know how I feel. Someone who is such a good friend in my head--he's seen my ups and downs, someone I call when the greatest and worst things happen, because I know he will offer solice and comfort or congratulations and praise, depending on the situation. That's valuable--do you risk that for the sake of knowing, one way or another, if what your heart feels is mutual?
A vague and random blog...
