Land of Maybe

With a lethal combination of technology and thin skin, we've become cursed with maybe. Why is it so damn difficult to plan things? "Well I might come" or "Maybe I'd do that" like we are retarded to the idea of committing to the future in any regard. I realized how stricken I am with this syndrome last year while making plans with Jen Cash, possibly the last person in the lower 48 without a cell phone. It was strangely a relief to have such viscous plans. I wouldn't be so vociferous about it if it weren't so rampant today. Its like we have to poll public opinion before we make a move toward anything. So much so that it is almost refreshing when one acts spontaneously out of desire frustration or both and actually says or does something. My favorite kissed story is an example. I was working at Adventure Links and, when one lives in a tent village, one gets very close to ones neighbors and coworkers. I had a feeling Mario liked me, but little had been said and even less had actually been done. One night I was sitting on the floor of my platform tent, playing solitaire by lantern light (it's a tent village--there's not a lot of night life. don't judge me). Mario came in and sat in the chair in the corner like he always did and we chatted for a bit then he bid me good night, got up and walked out. Not two minutes later he came back in and squatted beside me. He looked me in the eye and said, "I've wanted to do this for a long time," and just kissed me. Needless to say, I was floored. Then he said, "Thank you. Goodnight," got up and walked out. WHOA! SPEECHLESS! It took another two minutes before my breathing was restored.
The man has got guts. I didn't want to date him but after that I'd totally consider it. To this day, mad props are given to Mario.
Thing is, there is something insatiably desirable about definitive action.
We live in a world where indecision and inaction are becoming norm.
I'd like to stop having to check with everyone before I commit, and I'd like to commit w/o fear that as soon as I do, something "better might come along" whatever the hell that means.