A Wider Lens

So control freakishnes...still on that topic. This characteristic in me may be my biggest weakness when it comes to relationships, because of the tie in between control and vunerability. The dreaded V word! I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day about broken relationships--regardless if they are with a significant other, a friend or family they have one underlying thing in common--they can all teach you something about yourself that you could not have learned from any other person at any other time. It's a unique and extremely personal lesson and thus seems almost worth the pain such breakups saturate upon an individual's psyche. I should be quick to note that such insights into those more subtle of life's lessons are not immediate--rather, time filters emotion into objectivity. I firmly agree with my friend--that each relationship has a personal lesson to teach and a potential path to effect growth--and that growth can be positive or negative. Do I fear relationships? A bit yes. Do I desire a relationship? I don't know. I guess. I'm not burning in anticipation and the timing is off, so it's the perfect time to fall for someone. I will remain on my course and see what pops up--and in the meantime keep learning from those who are around me.